Reflection

Reflection

I've always wonder who I really am as I stare at my reflection in the mirror...

In my dreams a part of me has a blank stare but the other side feels like smiling somehow...

All my life I've been a lonewolf loving and being happy with others but the other part of me hates myself...

The other part of me that feels hate for being selfish...taking things for granted...

Unsettled past to take care of...ignorance...clumsiness...regret...and feeling that I'm not good enough as a person...

Despite of all the bad things that happened I feel from myself from within...

I've always been thinking that life is not bad at all because I never think that I'm perfect in life...

My will to live is strong and every mistakes I have done in life will always be a lesson for me

And for others to learn and pass on to live life to the fullest and improve for the best...

I know it's inevitable that there are times in life that people have their own point of view

Or should I say opinion on what they believe in because we all live in a different life and can't be

Only judged/blamed by words alone on how we feel or act because knowing life from others or from themselves

On what is like in life is important before saying anything or the right to speak if indeed the

Person spoken too is well known that it is...

I do admit I'm one of the people who have misjudged a person on how they way they talk,act,and treat me as a person

But... I have no problem if there are times in life I get insulted,misunderstood from my actions,and being looked down upon but...

The only thing that I don't accept as an apology is hurting my loved ones and making a disgrace for

My bloodline or family name...

Patience is somehow related for what I've said earlier...

Everything bad,unexpected events in life that happened to me is alright, but it's unforgivable,unacceptable if there are times/situations in life

That has been taken too far so that's why sometimes a patient person should have limits on when

It's a right time to get angry not for hate but for discipline depending from a person's actions...

Of all the people in life I'm very gratefull/thankfull to are my family,friends,relatives and other people

Who I care about is what makes me complete in my life's existence...

If no one cares about me in this world then my life's existence feels like a wandering ghost walking on a neverending road with no purpose in life itself...

I may sometimes feel lonely or alone walking,sitting,staying anywhere like in a crowded place and not being noticed by a lot of people

But... what really matters to me that there are people who I'm thinking,remembering within my heart,mind or memory cherished within me...

As a lonewolf... my heart feels hope that I will be able to love myself and accept the person who I'll love someday

For who I am before its too late to love someone because time flys by so fast before we know it and I really don't feel like being left behind before I get old to love someone...

The word HOPE and for the people who I care about give me the light of my day in the dakest days happening in life is what makes me the person for who I am...

And so the mystery,puzzle about me knowing my own reflection not by me alone

But from the people who I care about really depends on my actions...path or road I take in the future that we are...

And so this is how I envision myself from my own reflection and that's what the other part of me makes me smile...